its great to know that there is someone who still drops by here once a while.
and for that, thank you very much.
this place is an avenue for me to express whatever feelings that i might be have and i dont want that many people to know about it. i like it this way. the layout mite be the same since the last 5 yeas, but i dont care. this is who i am. (actually, i am a dumb in web designing. hehehe)

at the moment, i am feeling content. despite whatever happened as per the previous entries, i moved on, even tho it was difficult at first. i was such a loser in handling heartbreak. but then again, tell me one person who excel in heartbreak!

i think i am much better off this way for now. i am very comfortable with myself. eventually, i would love to settle down, whatever it means, but now, i am feeling very settled.

in fact, whatever happened, it made me love myself even more. i feel better, sometimes more sexy than ever. the sun makes me happy. the rain makes me content.

sweethuneyz mumbled@11:52 and has 3 comments

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Wednesday, March 16, 2011

the heart is crumbling. crushed.
i dont feel anything at the moment.
i dont know what i am feeling.


thank for dropping by in my heart.

sweethuneyz mumbled@14:28 and has 1 comments

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Monday, March 07, 2011

i miss him.
badly!

sweethuneyz mumbled@23:00 and has 0 comments

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Sunday, February 13, 2011

when i thought that there is a lil ray of light at the end of it, it started to move further and further away from me.

i thought i would not go down the same road again. but after a month of happiness (or so i think), it seemed to be robbed from me yet again.

after years of heartbreak, i thought he was the one for me.
we were just so happy together.
when we were out or just talking on the phone,
it seemed that the world belong to us.
it was just so easy to talk to him.
i never talk to a guy like how i did with him.
we talked about basically everything from the very first time.
and how the conversations flowed so easily made me very comfortable.

its been awhile since i am very comfortable with any guys.
and why must all these happened.

i hated my instinct.
i wish what i felt was all wrong.
but when i did some checks,
everything, every single thing
confirms the doubts that i was having.

why did you do this?
why are you doing this to me?
i told you, if you wanted to drop me,
drop it slowly.
dont just crash me down.
and you promised me that you wont.

i dont know if i can ever forgive you.
worst still, i dont if i can ever forgive myself for letting myself falling for you.
it hurts badly.
very very badly

sweethuneyz mumbled@18:35 and has 0 comments

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Friday, June 11, 2010

nice rite?

sweethuneyz mumbled@16:39 and has 0 comments

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Wednesday, June 09, 2010

Would love to call myself the citizen of the world.
But do I deserve that title?
Over the last decade, I spend half of it away from Singapore.
Studying for 3 years.
Working  for almost 2 years.
Exchange program for about 2months (6 months if you counted all the trainings)
Short trips every now and then.

The last trip I've made, I was being offered a job
Yet again, it'll be away from the family.
It will be a permanent post with great remuneration.
Am still deciding if I should take up the offer.
It will be fun, says the heart
It will be risky, says the head
At the end of it, it will be definitely a new experience.

I would love to be there
I love the country.
I love the food there.
I love the friends I have over there.
I love the culture there.

I will only decide after visiting the office next month
I hope HE will show me the way.

sweethuneyz mumbled@17:01 and has 0 comments

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Thursday, July 16, 2009

its so funny that the bro and sil are trying to intro me to their friend.
but its funnier that they freak that guy.
i know they mean well, but sometimes... back out a lil bit.
let things go on first and see how it goes.
he may be their friend, but now things are very new to both of us.
let us know each other better for a lil bit before you guys can come into the picture.
for now, it is kinda impossible for the 4 of us to go out together.
it'll be weird.
he being their long time friend,
and me being their sister.


give it time, ok people.
if it work out..
trust me,
you guys be the first to know.

pray for me.

sweethuneyz mumbled@11:41 and has 2 comments

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Tuesday, April 14, 2009

is it wrong to think about the people who had left?
i've been thinking about him a lot lately.
he would be 30 last saturday.
he didnt even get to see his 28th birthday.
he left us without saying goodbye.
he was suppose to meet me over the weekend
to discuss about his wedding.
but he left on tuesday morning.
i still do miss him.
thinking about all those things that we did together.
he would fetch me and just drive around through the night.
we would talk about everything.
we shared a lot of things together.

hope you are resting in peace over there.
hope you are still looking down on us.

i miss you, razak.
my cousin, my friend, my brother.

al-fateha.
11april1979 - 13february2007

sweethuneyz mumbled@13:04 and has 0 comments

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Thursday, February 26, 2009

its a little late to realise that things have been taught the way it has been all these years.
i wish i can say, 'i told you so"
but i know i couldn't.
all that had been done should be pointed out since the early years,
but the only response that i get was 'it's ok, things are just different now."

look at the way things are happening.
its just beyond control.
who is to blame?

sweethuneyz mumbled@23:39 and has 0 comments

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Friday, January 16, 2009

its his 36th birthday today.
the last time i actually wished him was many years ago that i cant even remember.

i dunno why but i kept thinking about him lately.
there'll be always something to remind me about him.
i wonder why.

well,
happy birthday, u!

sweethuneyz mumbled@13:15 and has 0 comments

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Wednesday, January 07, 2009

am hoping and wishing that things will go on the way i want it to be...


and oh..

never promise things that u can fulfill.


cheers!

sweethuneyz mumbled@12:55 and has 0 comments

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Saturday, December 13, 2008

while i am still smiling for the reason of the 20th nov's post, i am disappointed with something i just managed to confirm the whole story. i am so disappointed that tears are actually swelling in my eyes.

i am truly hurt with what i just got to know.

thank you for everything.

sweethuneyz mumbled@23:42 and has 0 comments

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Sunday, December 07, 2008

just me..

sweethuneyz mumbled@05:14 and has 0 comments

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Sunday, November 30, 2008

*whisper to the wind*

please take me away...

sweethuneyz mumbled@23:42 and has 0 comments

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Thursday, November 20, 2008

I hope the smile will last till at least the end of the year..


*smiles*

sweethuneyz mumbled@15:26 and has 0 comments

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