its my princess' day today.
happy 5th birthday, arfa!! hope u enjoy your day. love u soo much!!!! *hugs*
*gorgeous, isnt she?*
received a text msg just moments i reached the office, and the msg itself made me tear. tears of joy to be exact.
congrats both of u. after months of stressing all about it, and now, its definitely coming along the way. congrats my dearies. love u loads. *hugs*
what are u grinning at????
the good ol' times.... anyways, haryani, its great to see u again. i reckon, i see u again this sunday, insya-allah.
was supposed to blog abt this some time ago, but havent really got the mood to do it. lazy and the pms thing was ard. oh well, excuses.
haryani was here some time 2 weeks ago. just a short getaway from her family. noorliza text me on the monday afternoon saying that haryani was suppose to reach kl on tues.
haryani is the only malay student that was in the same class as me since secondary one till secondary 5. i remembered the first time i went to jb without my parents, i think i was still in sec 2, and i went with her. and we did a lot of things together lah.
we even joined the trip organised by the school. study trip to malacca & kl (once in 95, once in 94), and the first trip together with the rest of the students were to terengganu and kelantan in 1993. all of us had fun playing pranks on others.
i remembered when i was in secondary school, i always wanted to be a guy. i dunno why. even during malay dance, the other gerls wld call me by the name "boy", hahhaa... and i even initialised some of my stuffs with 'boy'. hehhee.. ohh... and i cant be seen without a cap on when i go out. i had this fav cap of mine, always put it on wherever i go. but somehow, since i was a 'boy' during my teenage life, some stuffs were to be shared with the elder brothers. well, we did share t-shirts and jeans. i remembered sneaking in abg as' wardrobe to take his jimmy-z stripe t-shirt, it was my favorite. i used to have a different watch almost every other day, thanks to abg ir's collection, and they used to take my cap and my jeans just when it was the days that i planned to put them on. and the cap had a sad ending tho, or so i thought. abg as's was having it on and he claimed that the cap flew away while he was riding along the expressway. and there goes my beloved cap. 
this photo was taken in a baba nyonya restaurant in malacca during the school trip in 1995. and that's my fav cap. 
taken during haryani was in town. managed to persuade walizah to spent the nite over with us, just to remember the times we had during secondary school. haryani still looks the same, aite? *oohhh... just realised that in this photo, all three of us are just soooo jenduls... heahheahea
dammit...
why must it always hurt every month??
cant it be just a once kinda thing?
its bloody swollen and i cant even concentrate on my work.
its overflowing, and
i cant even touch it cause it bloody hell hurts!!!!!
sing.a.pore i.do.l
i havent even watch a single full episode of the show yet till now, and friends have been telling me abt ha.dy and rah.imah, how good their voices are and what nots.
only this morning that i managed to find their clips - from the audition to the piano shows. and in my opinion, i say it again, MY opinion, i find ha.dy lack of something. his voice is ok, but maybe there's some missing essence to it. i dunno what it is, but.... hhhmmm... u know what i mean, dont u? hahhaa... to me, he is just another pretty boy, just like that the other guy in the first season, the nurse guy. i cant even remember his name. haha oh well, it didnt matter anyway.
the other one that i managed to watch is, rah.imah. i think i like her. her voice is different from the others that are too ballad sounding. i like her version of heaven during the auditions better than ha.dy's during the piano show. she's young, and she got the character, i reckon. cept that the hair, she needs to do a lil something abt it. not all rockstars have big hair, u know.
to both of u, all the best for your journey in the show. i hope i'll be able to catch an episode when i'm back.
*now i wonder, why the hell i cant sing, and if i do, it'll be really really off pitch. hhhmmm.....*
today, its her turn....
Happy birthday idah busyuk!! i lop u many many!!!
it's his birthday today!!!
Happy Birthday, Abg As. Hope u have a great one.
see u and the rest tomorrow.
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girl interrupted
she did it again yesterday. she hurt me, badly, i can say. sometimes, i asked, what have i done for her to behave that way. i tried to be the best for her, but somehow, i reckon, she took it for granted, coz she knows that i will get it done for her and it is my responsibility.
yesterday, i was just so angry and disappointed at her. yeah, i forgive her as i love her so much. but i do not know when she will ever realise that if she keeps on having those attitudes, it will do her more harm than good.
yeah, i know, i resented having her in my life before. but after a while, she's a part of my life. i wouldnt know what it's gonna be like without her around. i love her so much, but what she did was just too hurtful for me. yes, it's hurting me.
i tried the soft approach, she said to me, "you suck!!". i tried the harsh approach, she ignored me. i do not know what else i'm suppose to do now. i know her hormones are at a raging peak now, but i am sure she knows how to control them. but sadly, it got worse lately.
i really really hope she will ask herself, what have she done? does she know that with this kind of behaviour, it will do more damage, not for others, but herself. i forgive her for every thing that she'd done, even though if she did not apologise to me, as i love her so much. i just want her to know that i am truly disappointed that she is behaving that way.
dont change for me, change for yourself. i love you no matter what.