be good....
been feeling very mixed up since morning and i really dunno why. there were moments that i just wanna cry it out, but am in the office and i cant do that. its just one of those uneasy feelings that i'll get from time to time, and normally... what i'll do is i call mak, and sometimes, just by hearing her voice the feelings start to fade away slowly. (reminds me of times when i was in brisbane and i actually called mak in the middle of my tutorials just because of all these feelings... hehehe)
so, just before lunch just now, i called mak, and she said, yai's condition doesnt really look good.
i dunno if its because of this that i'm feeling this way....
but mak did say something 'weird' before hanging up just now.....
she said,
"ah... kat sana tu... jangan naughty-naughty... be good..."
i was like huh??? apa nie?
i mean, after all these while, sekarang baru nak pesan ker?
and what did she mean, jgn naughty2??
she baru sedar ker that i am actually naughty?? hehhee...
if she meant that i am naughty by staying out late almost every nite, then, rest assured mak, normally, after work, i'll have dinner outside, then, i straight go back home.
and of course lah, occasionally, i do go out here and there, but i'll always try to be back home by 10 or 11pm latest. hhmmmm.... ntah lah...
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anyways... my own version of uda and dara, 
i love them both, heaps....
the most beautiful couple that i've known in my life....
full....
just called first coach to book the ticket back to spore this friday. but, it's full.... for the whole day.. i wonder how can i reach back to spore before midnight this friday...
i guess, i gotta go down to pudu and beat the rush and jam just to get a seat back home...
arrrrggghhhhhh
at work....
was typing the first entry in the morning, the system just hang and died on me, tried again and then blogger yg buat hal... fed-up seh.... so, in the end.... malas nak update even tho there's lot to tell....
yours truly at work..... *winks*
new friends.....
went back last nite alone as liza has completed her exams and now having her holidays. cik aim dropped me off at causeway point at ard 10pm, and i waited for that blardy 950 for a good 20mins. i had the 11pm bus in mind so, i want to rush as fast as i cld. thank goodness, the traffic was on my way... yiippeee.... the causeway was clear... very clear indeed, cept for the one going back to spore. terrible... even the bus cldnt get in and there were a massive human flow at the bus terminal at the jb checkpoint... but oh well... it didnt really concern me.... hehehe....
managed to reach merlin tower at quarter to 11 and i managed to get my tix. and this time round, i had to board the bus from city square instead of the normal larkin. while waiting for the bus, 2 guys with yellow tickets came and approached me if i am on the same bus as them as i was holding a green ticket. i just told them, that i reckon that we are on the same bus even tho our tickets are different as we bought from different agents. they rarely take bus to kl, i later learnt. they are sporean guys - rizal and shaiful,who are working as consultants in puchong. so basically, throughout the first hour and a half, i had companions and was just casually chatting with them. lepaks ah dorang... ketawa jer.... nasib baik tak kena lempar ngan selipar from the other passengers... hehehehe..... we finally said our goodnites (did i??) at just after 2am.... hehhee....
mite be meeting them for dinner one of these days when they come down to kl.
oh..... on the other hand.... i took the bus to work for the first time i started working here, and it was pretty fast and cheap too.... rm1.50 jer... heahehahea..... now i know of an alternatives especially when i'm broke......
i hope i'll be smiling when i leave office today...... *winks*
cant wait for the day to end...
nites out....
the training went on okies, i reckon. hehhe.... even the feedbacks that we got was very positive and the participants are all interested to know abt the upcoming events organised by us... yiipppeeee....
on thursday nite, went out for dinner with fahmy (a participant from spore), then we actually proceed to jln p ramlee... to just hang out and chill.... went to rum jungle, and the music was just very soothing.... all jazz-ed up.... then we made our way to thai club.. yeah... thai club.. heahhea... not the typical thai club i had in mind tho... it was alrite... the band playing was good actually... oohh... they were having free drinks for all ladies in the house all nite... but the thing is that... only for rum, gin and vodka... so boring one... oh well.....
after a couple of drinks there... we made our way to check out the rest of the clubs there and nuthing caught our ears and eyes... and we decided to go to the infamous hard rock cafe... and the band playing was from thailand and they are great.... heahhea... i reckon, hard rock in kl never disappoint.... the crowd was ok too... we left the place only at abt quarter past 2....
was kinda sleepy in the office yesterday... hehaheha... who dont rite.. when u have to be at the office before 8 the morning after...
took the bus straight after work last nite... and boy, the traffic was bad.. everyone decide to go to port dickson on friday evening straight after work... arrrggghhh.... the traffic only got better after that.... reached spore an hour later than usual... and found that my room was being hijacked..... hehehe... being hijacked my abg as and family... adik slept in mak's room as bapak left for philipines yesterday morning for sea games.... so... since my room was kinda full, i slept at the other empty room... back at my old bed... it just felt different tho...
oh.... btw.... zuraina just told me that her sis just gave birth to a baby gerl at kkh yesterday.... shld be home later in the afternoon... mite drop by to visit them later...
congratulations zuraida and azman for the birth of the baby gerl....
craving crave
just craving for this.....
the first....
after about 2 months that i am here in kl, today will be my first event that i am organising... and i'm already here in the office... left office a lil late last nite... and here i am early in the morning the first one to be in.... waiting for the rest to come and we can start the ball rolling....
i aint nervous or scared.... hehhee... i hope it's a good thing for a first timer... hope the day and tomorrow will go on smoothly....
what women want????
got this in an email this morning.... issit true??
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1. Body Odor -- A picture of a sweaty virile man might look great to us girls, but that's because it's not scratch and sniff (hmm, that’s another turn-off, come to think of it. Please try to leave this activity to the professional baseball players). In any case, gentlemen, we want you to sweat in the gym and get in shape for us. We just don’t want to smell you doing it. Particularly when you're nowhere near the gym. And don’t try the trick of covering it up with tons of aftershave. It doesn’t work. Repeat after me, "Shower and deodorant. Shower and deodorant."
2. Dirty Fingernails -- We’re big on hands. We like to look at yours. We like to decide if your hands are big or small, and if it matters. And ultimately, we want those hands to touch us, caress us and massage us. But ick! Not if the fingernails are dirty! You don’t need a professional manicure. Tidy and trimmed is all we ask for.
3. Uh, Sound Effects -- Why is it that Southern bodily emissions are so popular with men? We don’t get a kick out of it! We don’t admire your expertise, your bi-tonal ability, your volume. We all do it (yes, even women, no matter what we say). We just don’t need to share! Please "hum" quietly to yourself.
4. Idle Ogling -- We know you like looking at women. We’d be worried if you didn’t. But do you have to do it when you’re with us? Here we are, all dolled up, trying to make a big impression, and you’re staring at some other babe click-clacking by. When you’re with us, we want to feel like we’re the only woman in the world. Just for that moment, please?
5. All About You -- As we’re getting to know you, a certain amount of discussion about you is going to be necessary. But some men seem to think there is no more interesting subject in the universe than themselves. Please involve us in the conversation. We want to contribute too. And remember, if you only seem to care about yourself in conversation, we’re probably imagining you’re the same in the sack.
6. Oral Flecks -- This is probably more of a regional issue, but chewing tobacco looks really horrible all in your teeth. Gentleman, at some point, you want us to kiss you with gusto, and it's just not an appealing proposition if we're going to have to maneuver around a mouthful of chaw. In this same section, I'll add general bad breath for the same overall reason. Remember, floss is your friend.
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well, number 6 is definitely true for me... smelling tobacco is a big turn off for me.... aarrrgghhh.....
oh well....
all messed up.....
what a day i had..... from the time i entered office, till the first phone call. dammit sia... idiotic. so the bengang, u know....
still in the office, and there's still more to be done. bila dah nak balik... ada ajer yg datang....
i'm just soooo broke and fucked up now....
why you still fat??
went to bangsar shopping centre around 2000hrs last nite to catch afdlin's stand up comedy show at 'the actor's studio'. it was a marvellous show by afdlin, i must say. well, my first live stand up comedy, and i truly enjoyed it. he discussed abt the bads and goods of being fat and he is definitely proud of it. he even agrees that u dont need to have talent to be popular, thanks to the recent AF winner, mawi. all u need is aura.... hehhee.... read more abt the show on his blog. - one of my fav daily reads.
i would definitely catch more of these kinda show in the future. in fact, come year end, they'll be staging Malaysia's version of whose line is it, anyway? and afdlin will be one of them. i hope i'll manage to get my hands on the tix....
anyways, saw sarimah ibrahim at the show last nite and i said hi. hehhee... she's pretty and she's isnt that big real life. i mean, i always think that she's tall and wat nots, but she's alrite. pretty lady... oh yeah... afdlin isnt that big either real life. i've seen bigger men. and i think afdlin's cute.... *winks*
lalalalalala.....
hehhehee.... dunno what title to name this entry. having a headache now. things ard me seem to be spinning and spinning and spinning.... and it's only 10 in the morning... arrrgghhh....
was finishing my dinner while watching tv, my phone rang, and it was shahidah!!! she called all the way from brisbane. how i miss that gerl!! we talked and reminisced the times we had in brisbane and she telling me abt the gerl who stabbed her in the back. poor u, syida!! hehehe.. oh well, everythings turn out rite now, well, at least it seems to be alrite. thanks for calling darling. i'll see in january, insya-allah....
wont be going back to spore tonite as my mum and sis will be here tomorrow nite. yiipppeeee.... got a function to go on sunday at klang, and then on sunday nite, gonna watch afdlin shauki stand up comedy at bangsar.... cant wait for that tho...
but for now, what am i gonna do tomorrow the whole day?? hhhmmm... i wonder...
hey baby,
u know that i love u loads.
i've always look forward to meet u every time i come back.
baby,
15yrs ago,
u came to this world, unexpectedly,
well, to me at least.
not to say that i resent u being around,
but everything came too fast,
and i wasnt being informed.
baby,
i know that i am not the perfect sister,
but i always tried.
i try to be the sister u want me to be.
but, baby,
u must know,
i am only human.
all i can do is just to try.
baby,
dont u think it's time for u to be responsible of lots of stuffs?
u cant always expect me to be there for u,
to cover everything for u,
to do everything for u.
baby,
it's just the two of us left,
and now that i am away,
it's just only u at home.
u gotta help with the chores,
u gotta help mak and bapak with loads of things.
they are old,
dah tak larat lagi, b.
u dont have any pity for them ker?
baby,
i am not asking much,
u know what i mean.
u know what u shld do,
just that,
sometimes, u are in denial.
i know u are still young,
still wanna be with your friends,
but no matter what,
family comes first, darling.
no matter what...
baby,
now that u are 15,
i hope u remember to brush your teeth,
every morning and night.
i hope u remember to have your shower,
at least once a day.
i hope u remember not to have rubbish all over.
i hope u remember to call home,
if u gonna be held up wherever u are.
i hope u remember u have a duty to do,
as a daughter, sister, and a member in the house.
i hope u remember that, no matter what,
i always love u,
and u'll always be my baby. 
happy birthday, sayang.
enjoy your your day.
i love u loads.
back.....
i'm back in kl at abt 4am in the morning just now. kl is back to be herself just now when i was on the way to work. traffic jams, lrt station full of passengers, lots of ppl everywhere... and all the sorts.... the same bustling activities that were once seen before ramadhan...
on the latest news before i departed yesterday nite, khalid has joined his family members with chicken pox. alahai... lagi kesian tengok si kecik tu kena... eh.. bukan tengok.. nie baru dengar... so, its confirm that the trip to perak this coming wkend is cancel....
my flu decided to visit last nite. just when i reached abg as' place the nose just wont stop dripping and sneezing.. penat seh... sneeze too much till my head hurts... didnt go for lunch just now, instead i went in to the conference room to take a nap. the whole body's sore including the throat.... haiyah... i think this is due to PENAT!!!!!..... camner tak penat.. last wk.., i didnt really sleep during the wk... then wkend dah balik spore... with the shuttling to and from kl - spore... it surely take a lot out my energy...
the good friend came to visit my place yesterday evening.... and boy, her stomach has definitely grown... what do u expect, it's 5 months already... cepat kan... happy, yet seram for her.. dunno why also.. still cant believe that she's gonna be a mum soon. she even showed me the scan results when i was over at her place.... my oh my... the baby's big.... u take care, ok girl... *hugs* love u loads...
i am surely hitting the bed once i reach home later..... better have some rest before i gotta take another sick leave.. ehhehee...
home sick home....
this week, my trip back home just happened that everyone is sick. adik is still down with very bad sore throat and cough. imagine lah, she dah lah cannot pronounce 'r' betul-betul... and now with her sore throat.. it's even worst... hehehehe... then, mak dah nak demam-demam... asyik ask for panadol jer... only tadi pagi baru dia ambik 2 biji....
abg ir nye family, semua dah down with chicken pox... terrible seh... all four of them... khaider dah nak baik ah.. since he got it a wk before raya... now along, abg ir, and khair having it all at one go. khair got the marks all over his body, face, legs, well... basically everywhere lah... when over to visit them last nite to send some fruits to them... kesian khair... along said he was cranky the whole day...
aniq was also down with flu... his nose just wont stop dripping... was out visiting with abg as yesterday. but then again... si aniq nie.. sakit2 pon still masih active... lari sana lari sini... penat beb... nasib baik dorang dorang tu semua cute.. hehehe.... even si akif yesterday, when i met him, he asyik tersenyum simpul.... cam nampak girlfren gitu... very the mentel... ehhehehe...
going to visit yai later, then going to sembawang... then... going back to kl later tonite with the UM girls.... they having a paper besok, i think.... good luck for the exams girls... see u tonite..
dinner or supper??
made an appointment to meet with the rest of rantauan members at little penang cafe at mid-valley last nite since one of the senior member, kakz is in KL. iskandar made a reservation for 10 at abt 1930hrs. liza was already at mid valley catching a movie, so i met up with her first at we were actually seated at 1920hrs. the rest didnt come till an hour later. well, mazrah reached there at abt 8pm while the highlights for the day came only at just after 9pm. penat beb tunggu... nasib baik kita dah order makan dulu.. hehehhe.... kakz was held up at kelab darul ehsan for a deepavali function. u see, she is quite well known in malaysia even tho she has been staying in london just days after her wedding ceremony and that was 25 yrs ago. her malay is still superb. u will never imagine that she has been in london for a quarter of century. she can still even speak with loghat utara, where she came from lah.
well, it was really worth the wait, just to meet up with her. how often lah she comes back to this side of the world, so this is the best time to meet up with her. *winks* the moment she and iskandar arrived, the cafe was filled with our ramblings and laughter and flashes of cameras, and lots more. we were the last customers to be out from the cafe. nasib baik kat shopping complex, and the cafe closes at 2145hrs. hehhee... sampai kena halau, beb...
we then proceeded to devi's corner at bangsar to continue for makan. kakz wanted to have roti bakar. so, there were more and more chatting, catching up with the senior members and also getting to know the new members. we left the place close to midnite. i was really tired by the time i reached home. terus flat... just like my mobile nye battery. hehhee...
rantauan.com has come a long long way. i joined in as a member way back in my first semester in uni. it was my companion when i was lonely. knew and had met up with lots of other members from practically all over the world. made lot of good friends such as punzella, and payung... the website has in fact becomes a part of me. do drop by to the site, u mite know a lot of new things and even new friends. worth the try tho..... very informative site....
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am going back straight after work. booked a ticket with first coach for the 1900hrs bus. the one the leaves half an hour earlier has been fully booked. hhmmm.. even tho the price of the tix is a lil higher than the ones in pudu, i like the fact that it's faster. maybe it cld be the bus goes thru 2nd link unlike most buses. kinda ok lah for now. never say too early, hor... ehhehe
ben has been sending me to work for the pass three days. hhmmm... ntah lah... we'll see how it goes...
choco-time....
was half awake when jeremy came into my room, to pass me this....
that surely woke me up... hehehe... almost everyday at abt 5pm, he will make his round in the office to pass chocolates to everyone. different kind everytime. and most of the times, the best ones.... hehhee... yummy...
chickie, chickie pox.....
when i had chicken pox early this year, it was really terrifying... i had just started working in the shipping company for a month, and then, i had to take 2 wks of sick leave. how jaybon is that. hehehe... the poxies appeared at the spots where it made lying down very painful. i think i had two big ones at the back of my head, and a lot more at my back. i had to sleep facing down. but, alhamdulillah... there are not a visible mark anywhere. maybe because i followed what mak said. hehehe.. jadi budak baik... hehehe... i slept most of the times as to avoid scratching the poxies. drank a lot of water. and didnt eat a lot of stuffs. i think i lost a lot of weight then. apa tak nye... makan semua tak selera... bubur nasi and biskut jer aku lantak... tak pon, minum air jer... kenyang air...ehehe... when i had the poxies, a couple of unwanted things happened. oh well.... the most important thing was, there arent any visible poxie marks on my body. ehhehe...
when i was back from kl for hari raya, abg ir and family fetch me from the airport, and it was less than a wk before raya. khaider just got his chicken pox on that day. he was super weak. even the sound of us talking irritates him so badly. kesian dia. along was kinda sure that they wont be out on the first day of raya as she didnt want the rest of the kids to get poxie from khaider. but, khaider was alrite. they did went out during raya. it's sad tho esp for the kids with poxie to go out for raya as they were questioned almost everwhere they go... "muka tu kenapa? kena chicken pox eh???" and khaider being a kid, cried almost every time ppl asked him that... he felt inferior that he 'dah tak hensem lagi' ( that was what he said!!) the poxie marks covered his whole body and he told along, "ibu, ibu.... khaider dah tak tahu mana satu tetek khaider..." hehehe.. perasan kan budak tu... berangan ada tetek konon.. hehhee... he wasnt the only kid who had chicken pox on the first day of raya. siti hanna too got it. hers was worst when i saw her kat rumah wak ibut. but came third day of raya, the poxie marks on her face dah start to disappear.
just now in the morning, abg ir texted me. he asked me how to prevent the poxie marks to be visible. told him i did nuthing lah. but vitamin e cream is to reduce the marks. but firstly.. sapu jer ngan tu calamine lotion banyak2.... i asked him lah... sapa kena..... he said.. along got it.... and now... after lunch... he texted me again... saying that khair just got it too.... and now left abg ir to go and check whether he also got it coz he started to feel sick already.
now... the whole house kena quarantine. tak leh keluar rumah... semua kena chicken pox. dah ada reason tak keluar jalan raya... heahehahehaea.... selamats lah....
see u guys on sat.... *winks* to everybody else.... keep the poxie away from u....
home alone...
balik kl jer terus blog senyap sikit... dah tak macam dulu, pagi pagi masuk ofis, still got time to blog abt what happened the day before and what nots.
went back to kl alone on sunday nite. mak, bapak and adik sent me to larkin and i managed to get the 2330hrs bus. ben offered to fetch me from pudu. it was sweet of him to wake up at abt 4am in the morning just to fetch me.
went back to an empty house that morning. everyone was still on leave and wont be back till next wk. went to work with the semangat hari raya... siap ngan pakai baju kurung, bawak kuih muih. jeremy was so happy when i went to his room to give him the dried jelly that he wanted so badly way before i was on leave. kept on saying thank you the whole day.
went to kramat after work on monday to pay nyai yam a visit. the house was practically full with just wak lina and wak senah's kids. imagine, wak lina nye anak jer 10 orang. wak senah dah ada 14 org and the number 15 will be out any time now. ngah tunggu hari jer. i wonder how she manage seh.
fatimah was kind to accompany me over at my place that nite so that i wont be that home alone. hehhee...
met again with ben after work yesterday. went for dinner and had a chat. interesting guy tho. mite be meeting him for dinner again tonite.
without the rest of the hsemates, kl somehow seems empty....even the lrt wasnt as full as before raya... the roads were a lil better... a lil jer eh... tak banyak.. hehehe... so hsemates.... cepat2 lah korang korang semua balik!!!!
eid mubarak
eid mubarak to everyone. minal aidil wal fa'zin...may everyone had a nice and wonderful eid...
well, i had fun... who doesnt especially when u are already 27, and ppl still hand out 'the packets' to u... hehehehe... i can say that what i've got was lumayan... hahhaha... boleh cover kalau nak beli minyak wangi baru... hehhe..
malam raya yang diterangi oleh lampu colok... (just for a while jer!!)
together with my parents and sis...
the cousins...
my darlings...
hairul and me (my cousin of the same age as me, but he's married with 2 kids...)
my siblings.... abg as, myself, haqim, and abg ir
the six of us...
everyone of us at cik nani's place....