mid week was here and after hearing 'some' news, i decided to splurge. well, not really intentionally. was walking in the city when i saw a shop having a closing down sale. went in there and and i was out with a new dress and a watch. it was kinda a bargain. originally priced at $80, i paid only $10 for a roxy sundress. and a pink roxy watch for only $40 when the actual price was $119.95. i was kinda proud of myself for buying those stuffs at a bargain. went in to target, and got myself a pair of pants for only $12. quite happy with it. been buying a few pair of pants for the past weeks. *geez*
been having a couple of bad weeks. i reckon it is a very 'good' way to start a new semester. but i believe i'll endure. i believe endurance is the best solution for almost everything in life. i am hoping for the best in life, and in god's will, ll i'be fine.
here's a lil something i got from one of those mails:
life consists not in holding good cards, but in playing those you hold well~
it is not our abilities that show what we truly are. it is our choices~
it is just a curious thought, but it is only when you see people looking ridiculous that you realize just how much you love them~
a new week begins and it makes me wonder what i want in life or rather, what i really want out of this life. do i need love? do i need friendship? do i need all those expensive stuffs? do i need everything to make life wonderful? or rather, just being myself can make my own life more meaningful?
i wonder if we have to keep things to ourselves to make things/relationships around us work or should we really open up to each individual in our life? how about little stuffs that might hurt the other people's feelings? is it really important for me to say it out or just keep mum about it even though it will kill myself? how do i say things that bothers me to those who are bothering me? how do i explain to them to stay away from my life? or should i just let them bother me and get on with life?
life is just full of questions that are often unanswered. in the first place, should we really be questioning?
Cheerfulness and contentment are great beautifiers and are famous perservers of youthful looks.~
*grins*
got this off the American Poetry Review site. nice one tho.
Sometimes I feel
mother and father are
watching me, listening
to my thoughts, giggling
at their tadpole squiggling
toward the afterlife,
which is exactly how I began
all this, the work of taking a lifetime
to get over some old embarrassments,
except now I know I'm where
all longing longs to be
and that my parents up there,
like me when I was a kid,
long to grow up into me,
and that their paroxysms
over spilt milk now
are like Moses throwing up
his arms and parting the Red Sea,
and that the sun up there,
which is a shadowy pinprick
of a light so infinite it's been rarified
into spirit, is in its glory
as it makes billions of mistakes a minute.
Try not to be a man of success. Rather become a man of value. - albert einstein~
When we look into our own hearts, and begin to discover what is confused, and what is brilliant, what is bitter, and what is sweet, it isn't just ourselves that we are discovering. We are discovering the whole universe.~
Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.~
I am soo in love with this song!!
All About Loving You
Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me and you
Mistakes you know I've made a few
I took some shots and fell from time to time
Baby, you were there to pull me through
We've been around the block a time or two
I'm gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how we've come this far
The answer's written in my eyes
Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you
I've lived, I've loved, I've lost, I've paid some dues, baby
We've been to hell and back again
Through it all you're always my best friend
For all the words I didn't say and all the things I didn't do
Tonight I'm gonna find a way
You can take this world away
You're everything I am
Just read the lines upon my face
I'm all about lovin' you
Time will tell
a new piece written today.
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i've search beneath my soul
to find out my flaws.
i've search within my dreams
to know where i am heading.
i've search what lies in my heart,
has it ever had any true feelings.
i keep asking myself that question,
but somehow i don't seem to get the answer that i wanted.
i looked for the answer in my dreams, in my thoughts,
during the walks by the river, on the bus rides, during lectures
basically all the time, i keep on searching.
does my heart deserve to be filled with love?
do i deserve to be loved?
only time will tell, i hope.
those times
was talking to my hsemate when the song that accompanied us in sec sch years came to mind. not that i'm not over that someone. i hope i have. this song basically really reminds me of the times when i cant get over the fact that he is moving on. i'd even wrote something during those days.
if you happen to stumble upon this site, the following was written for u. that was what i was thinking back then. hope you are happy now. thanks for all those years.
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I miss the times
We held our hands
I miss the times
We looked into each other’s eyes
I miss those times
You whispered sweet words in my ears
I definitely miss the times
You made me laugh and cry at the same time
I miss the way
We touched each other’s hearts
I miss all those calls you’d made
I miss everything about you,
My cat.
Never get over you getting over me
Hear you're taking the town again
Having a good time, with all your good town friends
I don't think that you think of me
You're on your own now, and I'm alone and free
I know that I should get on with my life
but a life lived without you could never be right...
As long as the stars shine down from the heaven
As long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you, getting over me
I try to smile so the hurt won't show
Tell everybody, that I was glad to see you go
But the tears just won't go away (won't go away)
Loneliness found me, looks like it's here to stay
I know that I ought to find someone new
but all I find is myself always thinking of you...
No matter what I do,
It's not a lifetime to live through
I can't go on like this, I need your touch
you're the only one I'll ever love
I'll never get over you getting over me...