when i thought that there is a lil ray of light at the end of it, it started to move further and further away from me.
i thought i would not go down the same road again. but after a month of happiness (or so i think), it seemed to be robbed from me yet again.
after years of heartbreak, i thought he was the one for me.
we were just so happy together.
when we were out or just talking on the phone,
it seemed that the world belong to us.
it was just so easy to talk to him.
i never talk to a guy like how i did with him.
we talked about basically everything from the very first time.
and how the conversations flowed so easily made me very comfortable.
its been awhile since i am very comfortable with any guys.
and why must all these happened.
i hated my instinct.
i wish what i felt was all wrong.
but when i did some checks,
everything, every single thing
confirms the doubts that i was having.
why did you do this?
why are you doing this to me?
i told you, if you wanted to drop me,
drop it slowly.
dont just crash me down.
and you promised me that you wont.
i dont know if i can ever forgive you.
worst still, i dont if i can ever forgive myself for letting myself falling for you.
it hurts badly.
very very badly