tribute
3yrs ago, this date, i embarked to a new journey in my life. it was the start of a totally new experience. and it wldnt have happened without the help of a lot of people. throughout the whole 3 yrs in brisbane, i made new friends that some of them are so close that we are like family. so, this entry is a tribute to all of them that guide me thru the experience in brisbane. the names appear in no particular order.
thank you to all of u, from the bottom of my heart...
first of all, thanks a lot to sahiril and his family . without u guys, i wldnt have realise abt my potential to study abroad. thanks for what happened that gave me an opportunity to upgrade myself overseas. thanks for tears and encouragement that u gave me. wish u all the best in your future too.
amir, thanks for replying my email abt the temp accomodation. it was the first email that led on to many other help that u offered me. thanks for introducing me to maznie. thanks for being a brother. thanks for the rides that u willingly offer without any hesitation even tho your car was full. thanks to u too that i found myself a hsemate within days after arriving in brisbane.
maznie, thanks for accomodating me during my first week in brisbane. thanks for the hospitality that u gave. u really made me feel at home. u made me feel like i'm not a stranger in your house. thanks for the great friendship that u gave. thanks for the enjoyable trip to sydney in winter 2001. thank you for being a true friend.
yuszela, u were just like a younger sister to me. dun ask me why. but staying with u for 2yrs, it made me realise that we can be related even with a stranger. thanks for trusting me to be your hsemate. thanks for the first time experience i had staying with somebody that i've just met for only 2days. sincerely, thanks.
ayu, ayu, ayu... what wld i be without u.. thanks a lot my dear friend. u've been really really true friend. still remember the first time we first met. hehhee it'll stay fresh in my mind. thanks ayu. u have always been there whenever i need u. u never hesitate to give me and my hsemates a ride home even tho it was totally out of your way. u go all out to help others. u and your bubbly personality keep the mood going. i owe u a lot, ayu. i hope Allah swt. will help me repay your kindness. thanks darling.
soraya, thanks for being a hsemate, even tho u didnt know us. thanks for agreeing to the hse even tho u got no idea abt the condition of the hse. thanks for having faith in me and tasha. thanks for letting us being your models for your photojourn assgmts. i truly enjoyed them tho. i bet, tasha enjoyed them too. thanks for inviting us along to coolum for the weekend. thanks to your family too, esp to your mum who cooked for us during her stay in brisbane. thanks for being a part of us.
sheda, thanks for being that lil 'creature' for me to hug. hehee.. thanks for being a pain in the ass younger sister in brisbane. i truly enjoyed it tho. the hugging sessions, the summer walk-ard in brisbane, the cookie making session, the all the nite trivia session, everything. well, cept for your infamous mood-swing. hahha.. but then again, i finally accept them tho. *i was finding a photo of us together, but i just cldnt find any. just this one tho, during one of the late nite session in uni.*
nackish miri shah, thanks for being who u are. sorry i got to put your full name coz i just cldnt resist it. hehe... no other reasons. yeah, i know things didnt turn out the way we wanted at the end of my stay there in brisbane, trust me, i still have u in my mind. thanks for being a roommate for the last semester. thanks for being manja. even tho i wasnt sorry for how i behave, i am sorry that things turn out that way. thanks to your family for their presence in brisbane and the way they accepted my invitation to stay over really touches my heart. thanks to your family again for welcoming me to malacca last year. thank you for everything, gerl. *smiles*
tasha, not only u are a roommate, but u are more than that. i dunno how to describe the relationship we share, but i truly treasure it tho. thanks for everything. those little things that we share, whether we realise them or not, play a major part during my stay there. i'm sorry for what happened to boris. i just have to do what i have to do. i do miss him tho, sometimes. it was because of u that i can actually tolerate him. if not, i dun think i give a damn abt that lil creature of yours. i'm sorry if i can be a pain to liive with, i'm sorry if there are things that i did annoy u. sincerest thanks for the 2yrs that we stayed together. thank you. thank you. thank you.
i know there are more individuals that played a part in my life when i was there. to those whom i didnt mention your names, not that i forget, i have always do, thanks for dropping by in my life. thanks for adding some colours to my life. from the bottom of my heart, i thank you.
all the best in whatever u are doing now. good luck. always be greatful that we have friends around us to make us smile, laugh, and even cry. these are the things that make us look back in memories.
to my beloved family, thanks for being patience with me. thanks for the endless support and love that u have given me. nuthing in the world cld ever repay them. mak, thanks for the consent to let me go 3yrs ago. u have always been strong and i know u have always believe in me. thank you mak. bapak, abg ir, abg as, adik, thanks for the love that u guys showered me. thanks for bearing with my nonsensical behaviours, thoughts and all. thank you, my family. i love u guys loads.
thank you, my friends, my family...
qoute of the day
*got this off a friend*
reflections
Been there once,
and I thought never again,
only to have repetitions,
for every new day begin...
Crossroads aplenty
each every moment as can be,
choose the next step wisely
the future belongs to you, cos its your own destiny.
Destiny's written, but who knows abt it actually?
Not u, not me, only HIM
and HE has surely reserved the best for you,
and that's something that no one knows about, not me not you
Tears are sparkling clean and pure
Its a relief from the heart, from the bottom of it all...
Tears drop in happiness or sorrow,
It shouldnt be a dark cloud long before tomorrow
Cry all you want, all day or night
Free yourself from sorrow, to live on and fight!
Let tears be a relief, not and never to let you drown
There should be a smile after tears, not another sad face, not another long frown
So here you are at a crossroad,
Dont care how u got there...
so whats the next step?
and most importantly where?
Somebody to help you, everyone can do,
ultimately u know urself, the decision lies in you.
be firm in your stand, and rationalise every action,
dats how u'll be respected, for having made that crucial decision.
look back, and review what had happened
believe in your strength, and learn where you have weakened
Happy? Happiness is yours, with whom others juz share a piece
Realise that there's no one at all that we can actually please
Why live your life juz for (to please) others,
What about yourself, its your own self that matters
So here's your choice you're abt to decide;
One thing for sure, not the one road that you had been travelling all night;
Cos here's the day, all bright and shining;
Have faith in yourself, and have faith in HIM
Whatever decision may not be the best;
But what best you make out of the decision, separates the good and the rest
Undiscover your inner strength, you'll neva know till you actually try;
Sweat a little is more worthy, rather than you drop to your knees and CRY!
Doa and Istikharah, those are what you have done;
Whats next, practically by the next rising sun...
Left or right, remains a mystery;
Till we crawl, walk or run the distance, and lived to tell the tale;
then you know, that's one sweet success, invaluable experience as can be.
ALLAH has been there, all these while for you and us...
Have you made the difference, after all this fuss?
Have faith within,
there's a silver lining,
juz beyond the horizon
and InsyaAllah;
I see you there,
smiling
;)
thank you once again
hey again guys....
i decided, i cant be away too long. thanks once again for all those well wishes, be it thru emails, sms, phone calls, meet-ups and stuffs like that. really really appreciate them. *hugs*
i wld like to apologise for those unanswered calls, unreplied sms-es and msn msg-es. i'm sorry that i just went into hibernation. now that i'm out from that cave that i was in for quite some time now, i realised that life has more to what it seems to be. thanks for being patience with me.
it has been a long long journey. it has been a dirty, and bumpy ride. but all those taught me to be strong to overcome all possible obstacles. alhamdulillah, i am still standing on my two feet. have yet to get that new pair of shoes that i can walk properly without falling as i dont think i need it now. in life, its not just abt standing up straight. some times we fall, sometimes we rise, and most of the times we learn from the journey that we go through, and that matter most.