that's his nick he used whenever he sent his writings to berita harian many many years back. it's actually his initials.

my mum and his dad are cousins, and that made us, second cousins. but we are more than that. we used to hang out together for coffee with the rest of the guys, used to go to the gym together, he used to just come to my place for a chat, or even an opinion, he used to pick me up in larkin when i had to travel back to spore from kl, and the buses to spore are all full, we used to go for makan trip together, we used to just go for a drive ard the city and back home early in the morning, we ever did organise a big family gathering 2 yrs ago, we used to do loads of stuffs together. we even joked abt relationships- that he is not supposed to get married even tho now that he is already engaged to be married, not until i got myself attach first.

this morning, i was in the shower when mak knocked on the door. with shampoo dripping from my hair, i opened the door and mak said something that changed the whole atmosphere that morning. upon hearing that, i quickly finished what i was doing, and changed. together with mak, we went straight to his place, which is abt 7mins walk from my house.

when we reached there, there were still not many ppl there. i asked abt what happen, and his dad mentioned that he left in his sleep. they tried to wake him up for morning prayers, but by then he was already cold. and that was that. he was still happy when he talked to his fiancee late last nite, he was still joking with his parents last night.

his body has to be brought to the hospital for a post mortem as he is still young to just leave like that. esp when there were recent reports abt young adults just passed in their sleep without any other reasons. so, as for now, we are still waiting for the results. we were told to come to the mortuary at abt 8pm.

abdul razak abdul hamid, i know u are in a better place now as u are a very good person. u are well-loved by everybody ard u, u get along with everybody of all ages.

ya allah, kau cucuri rahmatnya, tempatkan dia di antara orang-orang yang kau sayangi. maafkanlah segala dosa-dosanya di dunianya. ringanilah azabnya.

ajak, i'm gonna miss u.

Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiun

Al-fateha.