in a search for....
- a job
so far, it has been not really encouraging. yesterday, while my dad went down to play with the rabbits, he actually called my mum up to tell me that there's an opening with his former workplace. hhmm.... then when he reached home, he actually, flipped to the page in the new paper to show me the ad, and with much enthusiasm, his face glowed and his eyes were like a sparkling diamond, he said, "girl, try to apply for the post ah. mana tahu boleh dapat.... then can set the tradition of "father-daughter" in the same werk place." aiyah.... so the leceh ah. thank god he is no longer with the organisation. but for me to work there.. hhmmm... got to really really sit down and think. is that the job that i wanna do? i hated it when my dad went to work at the oddest hour. i hated it when he came back and then went out again. and now, if i really really desperate for a job, i am going through the same thing all over again? hhmmm......
- a proper place to sleep in
hehhehe.. well, not to say that i don't have any place to sleep, but a clean and comfortable place that i can have my beauty rest would be great. and i've got it. after abt 3 weeks or so that i came back, my room had been like a ship-wrecked. it was a horrible place to even to be stepped in. and now, the ordeal is finally over. got my new wardrobe, the table is in place, the bed has a new sheet, the 'entertainment' area is dust-free, the vanity area is well sorted out. hehhee... just need to get a new mirror. that's it. and the room will be completed. oh yeah, and new curtains. mite go down to spotlight one of these days, or when i got the money to buy stuffs. i decided not to repaint my room, just because, i am lazy. hehhee.. i've put photos and stuffs on the walls. so, yeah, i wont be painting the room. let the colour be blue. hehhee
- my true self
been doing a lot of thinking myself on what i really really want. my mind had been in a total mess just like my room 3 weeks ago. so mess that i cried in my sleep. so messed up that i sometimes don't know what to do. so messed up that i feel that i just wanna go out there and shout my lungs out. i'm still finding what i want in life now. still in search for it. and i'm still clueless abt it actually. i hope to find it soon, or at most, i hope to find the right path leading to it, insya-allah.
- the set-up disk
the winxp setup disk of my pc at home gone missing. been searching for it but i cldnt find it. called the technical support and u know what?? i got to pay $80 for the disk. dammit. but i need the cd to fix my computer. my laptop need a rest!! if the laptop can talk, it will actually scream at me!! hahaha... sorry my lil baby, i promise i wont over-use you. *winks* hehhe
- money!!!
i need money!!! on my own!! i cant simply keep asking my mum whenever i wanna go out. sometimes, i rather stay home and rot than asking my mum money so that i can go out. at most, if i really really had to go, i make sure my ez-link card is full. but then, paiseh to ask my mum more money. that's why i need a job fast!!! and i'm going kl next week, got the tix already, but the problem is that... where the hell i am gonna find my spending money there?? well, dad just gave me a couple of the red notes before he left the house just now. yiipppeeee.... but, eerrmm..it is still not enough. i still have weddings to go this wekend. 4 weddings!! aiyoh... bedok, ang mo kio, yishun and bt panjang. well spread huh? from one end to the other end. hhmm....
- answers
i need answers to the questions that have been lingering in my mind!! too many questions and there were always no answers. the answers are mostly very very vague. hhmm....
well, i guess, i'll continue my search from here....