goodbye for now and forever

You told me once not to leave you without saying goodbye,
but you left without saying a single word to me.
In fact, you asked someone to do it for you.
Not only I was asked to leave you alone,
criticisms and accusations were all thrown at me.

Thanks for entering my life.
Thanks for making me cry yet again.
Thanks for all the promises.
Thanks for all the things you said.
Thanks for all those soothing messages.
Thanks for making me realize who you are.
Thanks for making my eid a 'wonderful' one.
Thanks for the sleepless nights I had.
Thanks for everything.

You’ll never know how hurt I was.
You’ll never know how humiliated I was.
I didn’t know where to put my face.
I didn’t know where to hide.
Am I solely to blame?
Where were you when all those happened?
Where were you when those words were thrown at me?
Where were you?

I thought you were a real somebody,
But you really proved me wrong.
I thought you are the one who keep you word,
But you are not.

You may be someone who flies high,
But you stoop so low to do this kind of thing.
You may be in control of all those gears
But you can’t even control your own feelings.

I am sorry that our paths crossed.
I am sorry that I even know you.
I am sorry that I thought of you.

Hope you’ll find happiness in your life.
Goodbye for now and forever.

~

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Tuesday, November 25, 2003

not for name

it's not money that i'm looking for.
not even glamour or prestige or things alike.
i'm not even looking for name.

i don't give a damn about what profession one has.
to me, every job is a job.
it's all the same to me.
responsibility towards the job is more important than name.

so what if the person has a very high post that pays well?
so what if the person is werking as a clerk?
or even a cleaner or a pest controller?

it's just their jobs.
no more no less.
a responsibility that they have to fulfill.

i am what i am.
i am not looking for name.
i am just here to learn,
to make mistakes, to give myself a comfortable life.
i do not live for others.
i live for myself.
i do not need others to criticise me badly.
i do not need others to praise me everytime.
not that i cant accept critisms,
but when they come one time too many,
it hurts.

i have feelings too,
just like the rest of you.

it's not name that i'm looking,
just my own pride and dignity.


::eid mubarak to all::

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Thursday, November 13, 2003

kepala angin

was on the phone with a friend last night while having my sahur when i decided to listen to Headwind's songs. and was teased by that friend of mine for being 'jiwang' well, can't help it tho. the songs are very soulful to the ears and at that time of the night, don't expect me to listen to headbanging songs. *smiles*

kita serupa

Kalau dapat ku petik bintang di awan biru
Kan ku sematkan ke dalam dada mu
Kalau dapat ku capai bulan mengambang penuh
Kan ku hadiahkan di hari jadi mu

Begitulah janji ku kepada mu
Walaupun kau hanya menunduk bisu
Ku tahu kau terluka kerana cinta
Oleh dia yang tak setia

Nasib kita serupa
Bercinta dan kecewa
Mungkin dikau yang tiada menduga
Biar aku pilih mu
Mungkin dikau kan tahu
Betapa pilunya hati ku

Malah kau tuduh aku
Hanya menambah luka
Yang kini masih terus berdarah

Kita serupa... Kita serupa...
Hadir ku untuk mengubat luka
Kita serupa... Kita serupa...
Walau pun hati ku pernah di kecewa
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Saturday, November 08, 2003

DAH ABIS DAH!!!!!!

I'm done with my exams!!! yiiipppeeeee..... now i can sleep peacefully without having to wake up in the middle of the night just to read the notes. hmm... but then again, it's fasting month. i see have to wake up in the middle of the night. oh well. that's a totally different thing. hehhee..

no more exams for, well at least for now. *smiles* i'm going to sit back and relax.

but then again, still need to do the packing...

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Friday, November 07, 2003

those days

was reading my cousin's blog when i realised she linked me up as inas. hehe... that was my very first nick when i started chatting. those were the days of alamak chatting. hehehe.. miss those days tho. those were the times i found new friends that i thought i would never find online. they showed me the meanings of true friends.

hadi, herwin, faizal, mohadi, adha, fadzly, ridzal, azar, reza, amin, hardi, kamrul, syed omar, zana, hana, lyn, aliah and myself used to hang out together everywhere anywhere. seen the guys through ns, and i even went to their send off ceremony at khatib camp. hahhaa.. every year for raya, we will rent a mini bus for two days just to cover everybody's houses. it was soo fun.

now, faizal and zana are married to each other. and the latest thing i heard is that zana is expecting their first baby. *smiles* congrats both of u. hana is married to her dar, as she calls him. got herself a beautiful baby girl in september. fadzly and aliah tying the knot in december, insya-allah. ridzal is happy with his current relationship with yaqin.

dunno abt the rest if they are attached or not. been ages since i last heard from lyn. she is the one we wld say kejap ada kejap takder . amin had this karipap hairstyle. hehhe.. dun even ask me how it looked like. ehhe. herwin has this soulful voice. he can really sing. hadi is the charming one who has a lot of girls numbers stored in his mobile phone. hehe.. mohadi used to be eminem's fan. the one who loves heavy metal music. never understand his music tho. reza is the smart one. the first one among the lot to get a place in ntu. the one who scores As and distinctions during his 3 yrs in poly. adha is the guy who introduces us to the latest tissue blotter in the market. hehe.

oh god, how i miss those guys. wish i can meet up with them one day when i'm back in spore.

*where ever u guys maybe, i wish all the best to all of u. there's not a single moment that i take u guys off my mind. thanks my friends. i really do miss the '02 klan' days...*

~inas~

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Sunday, November 02, 2003

friends

to all my friends out there,
whoever you may be,
i just wanna say thanks for being a friend.
you dunno how much it means to me
we may not talk always,
but you are always in my mind.

i am glad that our paths crossed,
i am glad that we are given a chance
to know one another.
i am more than glad that we are friends.

you may be an old friend or even a new found friend,
no matter how long i know you
or even how well i know you,
thanks for being my friend.



~

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