its so funny that the bro and sil are trying to intro me to their friend.
but its funnier that they freak that guy.
i know they mean well, but sometimes... back out a lil bit.
let things go on first and see how it goes.
he may be their friend, but now things are very new to both of us.
let us know each other better for a lil bit before you guys can come into the picture.
for now, it is kinda impossible for the 4 of us to go out together.
it'll be weird.
he being their long time friend,
and me being their sister.
give it time, ok people.
if it work out..
trust me,
you guys be the first to know.
pray for me.
is it wrong to think about the people who had left?
i've been thinking about him a lot lately.
he would be 30 last saturday.
he didnt even get to see his 28th birthday.
he left us without saying goodbye.
he was suppose to meet me over the weekend
to discuss about his wedding.
but he left on tuesday morning.
i still do miss him.
thinking about all those things that we did together.
he would fetch me and just drive around through the night.
we would talk about everything.
we shared a lot of things together.
hope you are resting in peace over there.
hope you are still looking down on us.
i miss you, razak.
my cousin, my friend, my brother.
al-fateha.
11april1979 - 13february2007
its a little late to realise that things have been taught the way it has been all these years.
i wish i can say, 'i told you so"
but i know i couldn't.
all that had been done should be pointed out since the early years,
but the only response that i get was 'it's ok, things are just different now."
look at the way things are happening.
its just beyond control.
who is to blame?
its his 36th birthday today.
the last time i actually wished him was many years ago that i cant even remember.
i dunno why but i kept thinking about him lately.
there'll be always something to remind me about him.
i wonder why.
well,
happy birthday, u!
am hoping and wishing that things will go on the way i want it to be...
and oh..
never promise things that u can fulfill.
cheers!
while i am still smiling for the reason of the 20th nov's post, i am disappointed with something i just managed to confirm the whole story. i am so disappointed that tears are actually swelling in my eyes. 
i am truly hurt with what i just got to know.
thank you for everything.
just me..
*whisper to the wind*
please take me away...
I hope the smile will last till at least the end of the year..
*smiles*
its not that i dont want to talk to you
i would love it very much to.
face to face for that matter.
you..
yeah.. you,
you know who you are.
i dont need anything from the stores.
all i need is for you to show up right in front of me.
and tell me that you really exists.
if you are just a little shy about showing up,
maybe you can give me a greeting card
with your name signed.
or, if you are just simply lazy to go to the stores
and get a card,
all you have to do, is just write me a note,
at the back of that piece of paper you wanted
to throw in the bin,
show me signs that you exists.
its been 5 years now.
it was in september 2003 that we first chatted.
i just want to know you in person.
i'm not asking for more.
will you ever show up?
tell me!
i've decided,
enough is enough.
i just had a little too much of it.
and i reckon,
i had enough for now.
thanks!
i dont like the feeling i'm having at the moment.
am missing him when i know i shouldnt.
especially when things are still not clear.
i dont want to be on that same road yet again.
but i just cant help it but to feel that way.
it just seems so confusing at times.
i do enjoy the company
but i truly dont enjoy what i am feeling at the moment.
for i know, he shouldnt be the one.
i dont want to say it,
but...
really... i do miss him!
overhead just before lunch on friday.
*a teacher was scolding a group of boys just outside the school hall.
upon seeing me walking past them, two of the boys said,
"good morning, cher!!"
and to which the teacher who was scolding them said,
'she's not a teacher, and can u boys, let me speak?"
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so what, if i am not a teacher? dont i deserve the same respect too as teachers?
yeah, i know i dont teach in class, and i AM NOT a teacher, but was it really necessary for that teacher to say that? who does she think she is?
hmmpphh..
overheard at the kenduri a couple of weeks ago.
"cik naz, now u are known as "snow white and the seven dwarfs!"
u see, now i have 7 kids in tow, and the boys used to call me stepmother. and now, suddenly i am snow white.. just funny lah that lil boy.
my sil was saying as, i am not suited to be snow white, as snow white wasnt seen to scrub the toilet floor... so, cinderella wld be a better choice.
funny....